I think I burned the roof of my mouth

So it turns out spending all day at the gas station isn't that bad. In fact, I get to sit on my ass most of the time, so it's pretty cool.

We're getting a tv by the end of next week. Complete with cable. HA! I'll be chillin' to cartoon network. It'll be fabulous.

Some really old guy (at least, he was older than my mom) totally asked me out yesterday. This was not fabulous. Wanted me to go bear huntin' with him. WTF? No, Redneck Joe, you just mosey on. I would hope that he gets mauled by a bear, but I wouldn't wish that kind of indigestion on the poor animal. No tellin' where Redneck Joe's been.

Can I not get hit on by someone my age? Not even once?

Damnit.

In other news: Stuff at home is reaching a peak again. Don't feel like talking about that though. It's getting old.

In other, other news: It's FALL. That's right, people. It's just the right temp outside and I don't have to sleep with a fan on and can wear clothes at night now! Oh wait, was that TMI? Too bad. You can never have that moment of your life back. HA!

On a Roll...

My mom may want to look away...

Dear Dell,

Your service is shit.

I wanted to have a little faith in you. Just a little. The line of credit idea in order to pay for a laptop seemed like such a Godsend because Lord knows I wouldn't have been able to afford a new computer without it...but it's so not worth it anymore. It's been nearly two months, TWO FUCKING MONTHS, and I STILL don't have a charger and battery for my laptop. I'm lucky this cable still works as an AC adapter. Of course, if I so much as breathe on it wrong, it just falls right out of its port. THAT does me a hell of a lot of good.

And you know what? I should be able to just go to Best Buy or something to replace these things, but NO. I have to have a Piece of Shit charger made specifically for this laptop or it won't charge correctly. Not to mention the fact that this particular charger will die as soon as its warranty is up. Every person who's commented on it on the website has said this, and my friend with the same laptop is already on her second charger.

As soon as my loan is paid for, I'm going to scream a big FUCK YOU your way and close out my account. I'll also be saving up for a NEW laptop and parts to fix my desktop. Which I can actually do myself, thank you very much. Unlike your support, who's answer to everything is to just wipe the hard drive and start over. What? WHAT? Why can't I go to a Dell store and have then, I dunno, actually DO SOMETHING to fix my laptop? "Well, it isn't a problem if you use Norton's Ghost." I don't like that program. I don't like anything from Norton's. I shouldn't be punished for that. And I love how my laptop conveniently died RIGHT after its warranty was up and I had to pay $200 for a fucking phone call that didn't help me at all. I lost so many videos and pictures from school because of it. You know, my desktop is FRIED, but I know I can salvage the hard drive. And it's an E-machine. I think that says something about ya'll right there.

As an added bonus, I'm having to write this letter in my Livejournal and on my blogger blog because there isn't any contact information on the entirety of your site that's helpful! I don't have any questions that need answered, I just want to tell ya'll how much you SUCK. I noticed that you have a handy "feedback" button on the bottom of the page, but that's just for one's opinion of the site. I have no problems with the operation of Dell.com, and it also only allows 1000 characters for a comment. My issue is much more than 1000 characters. I remember a time when all services had an email or snail mail address where one could send in a letter of their opinion of the service they were provided, but I guess you guys just don't give a flying duck shit about your customers.

No Love,

Jessica "I ain't your bitch no more" Jenkins

Oh Em Gee Ya'll

Ok. Yah. I know it's been forever, blah, blah, blah. But whatever. Here's the general run down of things that have happened since May:

Home Life

I spend most of my time in my room, so I have no idea what's going on in the house. This is mainly due to not being able to move my laptop without shutting it down. Both the battery adn the ac adaptor have DIED on me and I'm ya know, forced to live in exile until I get that fixed. I ordered a new battery and cable the 23rd of July. Note that Monday is the 1st of September and I'm still without these items. Estimated delivery is the 10th of September.

Dell, you suck. Hard.

Gas Drama: As the Price Dial Turns

OMG the dramaz up in that station. We've gone through an employee or two since I updated with you guys, but I've been going strong. However, I was a little afraid there for a while. We kept running out of gas for days at a time and business was bad. Not to mention checks kept bouncing (including paychecks). Yah, it was pretty bad. This passed week, we were completely out of all types of fuel and were doing about $500 a day. There was this whole thing between our owner and the gas company that I can't even begin to understand beyond it being a bunch of bullshit, but that's all settled now.

In about two weeks, the store is going to be cleared out and we're going to start all over with a new owner. Starting then, I'll only be working two days a week (!!!), but for 14 hours a day (!!!!!!!). Yah, fun times ahead. I'm not really complaining, though. Seriously, I need the money. And my manager (yeah, I'll be working for the same guy), doesn't care if I sit on my butt when we don't have any customers. So I can totally sit there and read or work on stories without worrying about someone seeing me on a camera and getting fired on the spot. Manager is even going to try to talk New Owner into getting us a t.v. lol! And a comfy chair. Because the one we have now sucks. And it's not big enough for my fat ass. I fall off of it all the time.

Other than having to deal with changing distributers (I'm pretty sure everything but the gas will be coming from Sam's Club now), I'll have to worry about taxes. New Owner has other businesses and he doesn't take taxes out on their paychecks. GAH! So I'll have to worry about that by myself. Fun times.

The Future

In other words: Finances. The plan a week ago was to get a car in January. There will be sales and it's possible I could get a brand new car, if not a 2007 or '06. Happy days! However...I'm making less money now. *sigh* Paul thinks I'm making the same, but he isn't thinking about me paying taxes on my own. So I'm looking at going from $200 a week to $186 or so. It may not be coming out right then, but it will eventually so I can't plan with it. But oh well, I've bought the only thing I planned to buy other than a car- a new phone. It was time to upgrade, and it was only thiry bucks! So go me for that. So help me hope, guys.

Other than that, the only other future plans are to get a better job and find a new place. I've been talking with Megan and we've decided to get an apartment together once we can both afford it. I'm hopin' that plan comes together.

Check you peeps later.

Want.

Freaky Fanboy Crud and Missing Friends

So I've been home for like a week and haven't posted anything about Animazement. This is mostly due to being really effing lazy, but also because AZ08 was kind of a bomb. No, seriously. For those of you who didn't get to go...don't feel bad. It totally wasn't worth the $50. I think the only things I actually did that were AZ related were watch the music videos, watched Anime Hell, watched Vampire Knight...and visited both dances. There was a plushie panel I wanted to go to, but I had to sit through the music videos instead so I could get a seat for Anime Hell. I also wanted to go to a voice acting panel (it was an intro into the business kinda thing, not the one I had been to before), but the person I was standing with kinda turned their nose up at it and I didn't want to go alone. Other than that, the panels were so full of people, you couldn't get a seat.

Yeah. Very over-crowded.

Oh, and I managed to take two pictures :D






That last one is of me in the yukata that Aarin made for me :D I luffles it a lot!! I'll have to find a reason to wear it again.

Now...don't get me wrong about the weekend. I did have a blast- it's just that most of the fun was had in the room (which was in the hotel next door to the convention). There was drinking, singing, making fun of tv...it was great. There's a video of me being serenaded, but I STILL haven't fixed it to be uploaded yet. I'll get on that...sometime.

I also came back from the con with some crud that I probably caught when my sinuses were raped by the stench of freaky fanboy. Now my trashcan looks like something taken out of a fourteen year old boy's bedroom. Gah! So many tissues T_T

Animazement, wee!

So...Matilda crapped out on me. That's right, she suddenly doesn't have the money to go. Even though I asked her time and time again if she was saving money to go and she kept swearing she had plenty put away...

I'm beginning to notice she lies to me quite a bit.

So Aarin's coming to get me on Thursday and my mom's (hopefully) gonna meet us half way to Greensboro on Sunday. And the Twins are letting me stay in their room, so yay for not being completely left in the cold :D Yes I realize it's hot in May, stfu.

YAY!

Hey folks!

So like...Blogger wouldn't let me post anything. I mean, that's not the only reason I haven't posted, but that's part of it. So uhh...there. Today has been a day of relaxing for me. I know my job isn't hard, especially in comparison with working at the spa, or even the library, but it's still hard on my feet. I mean...I walk there, stand the ENTIRE TIME, then walk home. And then if I have to run any errands, I walk there too. So yesterday it hurt to just walk through the house. But today...today I have sat still for most of the day (and hey, I got up at 9am) and watched t.v., then worked on a character sketch from the RPG I post on. It came out pretty well, but I'm too lazy to go get the link for it and stuff. If you want to see, just ask.

Now, however, my rest is done. I need to go get nana's meds from the clinic and maybe I'll go to the post office. I'm still waiting on those posters I ordered in February. *sighs* I hate waiting for things T_T

Merf...

Blogger was disagreeing with my browser. *kicks blogger*

In other news, I've written two ficlets. Here's the second one.

OMG A Post! Excitement!

So I only got three hours of sleep last night before waking up at 4am to open at the gas station. Ok, so I woke up at 4:30. Mmm, sleeping in. Anymore, more on why I was up later. Right now I wanna tell ya'll about what I bought at work. It's one of the new Java Monster flavors from the Monster Energy peoples. Anyway, you guys should know by now that I hate coffee. HATE IT. However, this one (though not yet on the site) is flavored with Irish Creme- without the alcohol. OMG this is crazy bananas delicious. Ya'll just don't know. Go buy some, like right now.
Ok, so the reason I was up all night? I was RPing. Yep. Have I told ya'll that I was doing that? I think I did. Hell, I can't remember anything anymore. Anyway, it's going well. My character sort of has a love interest, but not. We're (me and another player) are trying to push them together, unfortunately, they both have relatioinship issues. *sighs* Stupid complex characters. ANYWAY that's all going well. I think I had forgotten how fun it is to just write with other people. I think it also helps that a majority of us know each other (there are a few players I don't know the true identities of, but that's cool), so we kind of know what to expect from each other. So, good stuff.
Oh, I also wanted to tell you guys about this site one of my mom's friends showed me. It's called Ficlets.com. It's basically like a round robin site where you write a very tiny bit of fiction and then someone picks up after you, then someone else continues from there. It's good for those days when you just feel like you need to write, but can't think of anything. Just write this little bit, and someone else will carry it on until POOF you have a plot :D There's also a thingie on there with ideas to give you "inspiration." I haven't done it yet, but I will sometime. I think you can use your AIM or LiveJournal logins on the site, too. So that's pretty nifty. When I get something up, I'll be sure to post a link so ya'll can add to it :D
Let's see, any other news? Spooky seems to be emotionally damaged. She's afraid of momma's room now- like will run away, mewling, if we put her in there. For those of you who don't know/remember, that's the room Scotty died in. So, take from that what you will. Right now she's up against my arm, demanding love whie I type. She's quite the needy Diva as of late.
She needs a pretty collar. One with a tiny bell on it.
*sighs* Ok, ya'll. I have to go clip and organize some coupons. Then run the dishwasher. All the while trying NOT to fall asleep. *sips more Java Monster*

The words you scribbled on the walls...

Sorry, I've been listening to A Favor House Atlantic by Coheed and Cambria like a bajillion times this week. It's just so catchy! So is Gravemakers and Gunslingers which me and Megan decided is Harry Dresden's theme song *nodnod*.

So...some stuff has happened since my last update. Don't worry, I handled things well. I haven't posted because I'm really tired after work, not because I became a depressed recluse XD. Nah, I've been working and it's been ok. My paychecks are pretty sweet and it looks like I may finally be able to save up some money on the side. Momma hopes I'll be able to buy a car by the time Animazement rolls around. I doubt that's gonna happen, but we'll see.

I had a new list of "Things I've Learned While Working At a Gas Station," but I forget what they were lol. Probably more to do with cigs and coffee. Nothing very exciting is going on there, though I did have this hella tall guy ask me to marry him the other day because I said I know how to make home made biscuits and gravy XD. Too bad I don't really like to cook lol.

Here's a quick runbye of other things:

Health front: I'm stuck at about 284lbs. That's not bad, not bad at all. But I need to work on my tummy some. So there will be some situps being done at some point. As soon as I find a place I can do them. I've started drinking water again (the reason I stopped is a LONG story) and that's helping a lot with some upset tummyness that I've been having. Good stuff, ya'll.

Creative front: I haven't touched my NaNovel. It kinda petered out. I did go back to the story I was working on before that, though. I'm on a new chapter, but things are going slow. Again, I'm really tired when I get home from work and I pretty much just sleep. I'm working on forceing myself to stay awake though. After all, my bedtime is 8pm. No joke, ya'll. I gotta wake up at 4am. Tonight is the exception because it was my day off and my schedule is a little messy because of that.

Hobby front: I still haven't read Proven Guilty. I bought the book...but I just can't bring myself to start it, knowing I'm going to get really into it and not want to sleep. I almost started it today, but I was distracted by something else- which brings me to:

Creative front, part II: I'm teaching myself to play guitar. For those of you who knew me then, you may remember that I've always wanted to play and tried to when I was in my early teens. Well that never worked out. My mom showed me some stuff, but it was really confusing and I didn't take in any of it. Last night was the final straw. I got tired of seeing song covers played by guys on guitar (on youtube). So, within like five minutes, I was searching information on how to read tabs. I can do that now and one of the reasons I've been listening to A Favor House Atlantic is because I've been practicing reading by listening to the song while looking at the tabs. I can keep up and that makes me a bit proud. Don't worry, I'm not trying to play it. I am trying to play The Reaping though. It's pretty simple- in fact, the most difficult part is the hammer ons you have to do and those are hard on an acoustic guitar, anyway. But yah...I can play the notes up until that part. There will be more practice tomorrow after I clean up the guitar I have (it was my mom's when she was learning. It still has it's original strings OMG), and tune it. Gotta find an online tuner. I can't do that crap by ear...at least not on something other than my clarinet.

Famblee Shame, Snowmen, and Things I Learn at the Gas Station

I'mma do this in the reverse order of my title. Because I can. STFU.

Things I've learned by working at a gas station:

- I like the smell of cigarettes and tobacco in general.
- People get pissed off over a penny when gas is concerned. God forbid they think I'm overcharging them two pennies. Sometimes I wish we had digital pumps.
- When you have to pee, and you work alone, 2500 people will decide they have to buy gas.
- I can't count.
- Everyone in town smokes Marlboros...cept like three people.
- People like lotto tickets, even though they don't win anything usualy.


That's it for now.

So as some of you may remember, it snowed a bunch last week (maybe it was longer, I can't remember) or so ago. I took pictures.

So other than that, we're going through some famblee shame at the moment. For those of you who live near me and went to my high school- the guy who was (until the other day) running the like detention classes was arrested for having sex with one of the students. This is famblee shame because he's my cousin. I don't mean like, we're sorta cousins- no we have the same last name. So now everyone in the COUNTY knows. Gee thanks, News 13. Now I can't go to work. Or leave the house.

Ever.

O_O

EVERYTHING'S WHITE!!!

*goes out and dances in the snow*

Happy New Year!

I didn't even so much as watch the ball drop at midnight. I said "Happy New Year" to the peeps on two sets of forums and that was it. After that I fed the dog and went to bed cuz I had to wake up at 4:30am. Why? Because I needed to be up, showered, and dressed in time to leave for work around 6:30am. Yah, that's right. I get to learn how to open today :D I work til 2pm, so today won't be too bad. Yesterday I learned how to use the register and, even though my tickets and stuff all added up right, I ended up $20 over at the end of the day. Better than being under lol! It was cool, though. The only downside is that I don't get to sit down...but I have a counter to lean against, so it's cool. Hopefully today I won't hit the wrong button on the register as much and I also won't take an hour to count all the stuff in my drawer.

Though my biggest concern today is falling asleep while standing up around noon. I can see it happening already. Normally I'd be fine on only 3-4 hours sleep, but I still haven't had a chance to fully recover from working at the spa Saturday and Sunday. We were hella busy and I killed my legs during those hours.

Exciting news!

Ya know, I do like working at the Spa. It's a good job- if you don't have a lot of bills to pay. However, my last day there is Sunday.

Monday is my first day at the gas station. My first two days working there, I'll have 14 hours. I work at least three more days of the week after that. It'll be AWESOME.

I'll keep ya'll posted on how things go.

Merri Kurisumasu!

Soooo...for breakfast this morning, I had a bowl of cereal. Except there was barely an inch of milk in the carton and no clean spoons. You'd think I'd wash a spoon. Nope. I totally ate TWO bowls of cereal with a fork. And it worked by golly. My mood is much improved today- I woke up before my alarm and went into the living room to bounce on my mom who went back to sleep on the couch.

I gots stuff, and I will post pictures later. But for now I give you a list:

- Two water bottles
- Spongebob umbrella
- Earmuffs
- Purple satin sheets
- Monkey plushie that also works as speakers for MP3 players. It has shiney lights that are seizureriffic.
- Lotion, spray, and body wash from Bath and Body Works
- Cooking Mama for the DS :D

Merry Christmas?

So the family, me, and a whole bunch of my friends have decided that this year Christmas just doesn't feel like Christmas. Maybe it's because it's been a particularly stressful few months for the people I know. Maybe because it's unusually warm and there isn't any snow. Maybe it's because I've been in a [/wrists] mood for about a month and I dunno why. Who knows, really.

I hope this [insert holiday of your choice here] is better for ya'll. I look forward to presents, though :D And to those of you I'm getting gifts for...umm...it's going to be a little longer til I can get anything. I kind of still don't have enough money for bills. I can't even buy gas. Soooo it'll be more like...Valentines day when you get stuff...if I get a new job. Chances are, with everyone quiting, I'll be getting more hours at the spa. That's a good thing, I guess. I'm pretty sure, though, that one shouldn't feel anxious and afraid of going to work.

I'm gonna hush now that I've brought everyone down :D My job here is done. *scampers off*

Holiday Memory

Writer's Block from LJ: Share a Holiday memory.

One Christmas Eve when I was really little (maybe five years old?), I had a horrible case of Pink Eye. It seems like I got it a lot, but then I was generally sick a lot. For those of you who don't know- I have a REALLY REALLY BAD fear of things being near my eyes. This is funny seeing as I can actually poke (and move) my eyeball with my finger. Evenso, I have a phobia of being stabbed in the eye. So imagine my horror when I found out that Nana had to put a dropper near my eye. I didn't mind the actual liquid so much- that felt kind of neat- but I didn't trust her coming at me with the dropper itself. So there I was, in my jammies on the floor, sitting between Nana's feet while she held my head, and I started bawling my eyes out. I think Momma might have been trying to hold me too because at this point I was starting to fight back. Nothing seemed to work. So Nana, being the wise negotiator that she is, offered me the option of opening one of my presents early if I would sit still long enough, without screaming, for her to put drops in my eyes. Being the greedy bugger that I was, I went for the deal. I still cried, but at least I was still XD I still remember the present too. It was a white seal plushie and I still have it somewhere in my room.

After that, I was allowed to open a present every Christmas Eve. Until this year. I'm kind of refusing to do it simply because there isn't much under the tree and I like for Christmas morning to last as long as possible.

Writer's Block- Winter Memory

So on LJ they have these "Wrtier's Block" prompts every day. Today's was "Write a winter memory using all of the five senses." So I did this, though I didn't use a real memory, just kind of a winter scene....thing that I made up. Here ya go:

The cold air cut through my hooded sweater and poked at my bones as I walked down the sidewalk through town. I took in another breath and smiled softly at the scent of everyone's wood stoves burning at full capacity, watching the little puff of frost form as I exhaled. The sun had not quite gone down yet, but the ground had that eerie bright grey glow about it from the snow clouds above, and most of the people were already in their houses. It was the second day of the snow storm, and while not a lot of it had actually layed on our warm grounds, it was damn near impossible to go across the white mountains and into the next town for groceries. Now that our small stores had been ransacked of all their milk and bread, most people were content to sit in their living rooms. I, on the other hand, continued my walk. The only sound acompaning the "whoosh" of my long pantlegs dragging in the snow was the hush of frozen flakes landing on the newly salted road.

I hunched over with my hands in the front pocket of my hoodie as I crossed over the railroad tracks and kept an eye out for the evil chickens that lived on the camp ground. They didn't have enough sense to stay out of the cold weather, much like myself, however they wouldn't hesitate to chase me if I was within view. Luckily for me they must have been terrorizing some poor, defensless camper. Finally I came to the bridge that went over the French Broad. I walked out until I was standing somewhere near the middle of the water and looked out to see the waters winding through the mountains. The waters around the rocks and along the banks has already frozen over and snow was beginning to settle on the small ice islands. I brushed the snow off of the railing and leaned my elbows against it, not careing about the wet spots that formed on my sleeves, and simply watched the ice. The river smelled different during this time of year. During the summer it had a scent of decay- leaving the taste of something like swamp water on your mouth when you breathed. But when it snowed it seemed to wash that away and all you could smell was wood burning in the distance. I looked from side to side, just to be sure that I really was the only one out and about, and seeing that I was alone I stuck out my tongue and caught a few snowflakes.

Smiling, I put my hands back into my front pocket and headed home.

Paula Deen and Shiney Things

I got a package from Aarin today :3 It consisted of some tiny ornaments for our tree and my Christmas present which may or may not be a book. LOL inside jokes...

Anyway, yah, it's totally a book. :D It's called Paula Celebrates and yes, it's a Paula Deen cook book! *wiggles* If ya'll know me at all, then you know that I love me some Paula Deen. She's that wonderful combination of cook and story teller that most people only see in their own grandmothers. I think it's safe to say that this is pretty much a requirement if you're a Southern woman. The book is a good example of this as each set of menues comes with a story of why the recipes are important to her and memories of her family. It'll be a good read :3

Imagin my surprise when I told Nana that I had this book and she told me that Paula was being picketed! She couldn't remember why, so I looked it up. You can read the news story HERE if you want to. It's from a news station in Savannah, Georgia- where Paula Deen's restaurant The Lady and Sons is located.

Basically what had happened was, Paula is the celebrity spokesperson for a ham company here in NC. Apparently they are having some Union issues as the workers feel they're environment is crap. It may very well be, I dunno. The point is, because Paula Deen is the celebrity spokesperson, they're trying to use her to get to the company. She's refusing to help them, however, because she feels it is not her place to be involved in the negotiations as she doesn't know anything about running a Union. She's a cook- that's all she knows.

I'd just like to say- Go you, Paula! I will cherish my copy of your book and I hope things return to normal for you and your employees at The Lady and Sons.

I HAVE to share this quote with you

I'm gonna share a quote from Dead Beat with ya'll. Don't worry, there are no spoilers. In fact, I won't even tell you who Harry's talking to in this scene. Just know that the book is written from Harry's POV.

"'Race me back. Beat me there, and I'll tell you.'
I blinked. 'What kind of kindergarten crap is that?'
His grey eyes flashed with anger. 'You want to know what it's like? Beat me down the beach.'
'Of all the ridiculous, immature, nonsense,' I said. Then I hooked a foot around *****'s calf, shoved him down to the sand, and took off down the beach at a dead sprint."

Yah. That made me lawl SO HARD.